“On choices – You are free to believe what you choose, and what you do attests to what you believe.” – Meditations From A Course In Miracles
I chose to skip ahead a few pages because I am not able to meditate peacefully if my mind is in conflict with the words on the page. As a result of this decision I settled “on choices.”
I kept a quiet vigil as I allowed these words to settle within my conscious thoughts. Then, lightly touch on my unconscious musings.
If I believed that a chair would keep me from falling to the floor and I sat on it, the chair would hold me up. It’s just like the picture on the opposite page. A man is holding his hand over his head to touch the sheet of ice that formed a cavern. He believed that the ice would not crumble and bury him alive. As he walked under it, he was able to testify that it indeed remained as it was. I imagine that it had cracked or crumbled it would have attested to the lack of faith he had in the sturdiness of this sheet of ice.
This helped to solidify my belief in positive thinking. I noticed that in the past couple of years I had let negative thoughts conquer and rule my life. It led to an unhappy work life, a loss of a job, trials in my marriage and with my family, and ultimately taking my love of music and writing with it; a result of a miserable self-loathing loaf. I guess that’s why I started this meditation journey. I wanted to find the positive, self-reassuring woman I once was; the one who inspired others with her carefree spirit, positive life-affirming ways, and humorous antidotes.
I know that I will not change overnight. After all, it took years to get to this place, and it will take longer to finally reach the peace that I seek deep within my soul. I just have to choose to believe in myself!